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First off all ...
My absence: On Sunday 24th October 2010 at 1.20am one of my best friends was tragically killed in a car crash about 1.5km from her house. Because she was part Maori she was brought to her house and her casket was left in the house and open for 4 days and on the 5Th day we had the funeral. As weird as it may sound I preferred being out at her house with her than at home, it gave me a sense of comfort and peace, it felt like she wasn't really gone, like she was still with us, but it also made me feel like she was just going to walk through the door and be like hey jokes on you guys:(. It hasn't sunk in it doesn't feel real, I don't want it to be real, I miss her so much , she was the one I told everything and I mean everything to. And she told me everything :(. She was a huge part of my life and now she's gone yes I know she's still in my heart but its not the same as seeing her gorgeous smiling face. I feel like a part of me is missing and it sucks and I hate it all I can think about everyday is her. But my promise to Katie is that baby girl I know you're not here for your parents to watch you grow up but we will always be here for you're parents I promise to always go and visit them. Babe you were only 17 it shouldn't have been you it shouldn't have happened why didnt you just get out of the car :'(. Its not fair . I hope you journey to the stars was safe and i will come visit you all the time
xoxoxo I love you so much my Taydee cakes