:(

First off all ...
My absence: On Sunday 24th October 2010 at 1.20am one of my best friends was tragically killed in a car crash about 1.5km from her house. Because she was part Maori she was brought to her house and her casket was left in the house and open for 4 days and on the 5Th day we had the funeral. As weird as it may sound I preferred being out at her house with her than at home, it gave me a sense of comfort and peace, it felt like she wasn't really gone, like she was still with us, but it also made me feel like she was just going to walk through the door and be like hey jokes on you guys:(. It hasn't sunk in it doesn't feel real, I don't want it to be real, I miss her so much , she was the one I told everything and I mean everything to. And she told me everything :(. She was a huge part of my life and now she's gone yes I know she's still in my heart but its not the same as seeing her gorgeous smiling face. I feel like a part of me is missing and it sucks and I hate it all I can think about everyday is her. But my promise to Katie is that baby girl I know you're not here for your parents to watch you grow up but we will always be here for you're parents I promise to always go and visit them. Babe you were only 17 it shouldn't have been you it shouldn't have happened why didnt you just get out of the car :'(. Its not fair . I hope you journey to the stars was safe and i will come visit you all the time
xoxoxo I love you so much my Taydee cakes

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

1. I had sugery when i was two on my stomach
2. I have blue eyes with white spots on the oustide ring
3. I have been with my boyfriend for two years
4. My mum doesnt realise how much i want to move out
5. I hate the fact that my mum cant accept that im growing up
6. No one knows about this blog :)
7. I want to start a beauty and fashion channel on youtube
8. Im failing....every subject
9. My parents are yet to find that out
10. I will NEVER accept that Daryl is my 'step' father
11. I dont get why he should get a say in my PERSONAL life. Its about me and my life and he isnt my father therefore he has no say
12. I regret not sticking up for myself to people i should have
13. I smoked for two years. Cigarettes and weed and you never ahd a clue
14. I have no clue what i want to be when im older
15. My mum wants me to be everthign im not
16. The one thing i hate the most is when you compare me to Ajay(my brother) You think he is an angel. Expect when you thought he was study he was at his mates getting drunk.
17. I drink a lot more than what my family know
18. I like all kinds of music :)
19. I thought my birth mark was dirt cause it was on my ring finger :)
20. I would rather eat fruit over junk
21. I want to travel
22. I love the beach. I want to live near it.
23. Ive been to australia once by myself to visit a friend and america twice to visit my mum
24. I love dressing up
25. Im a girlie girl AND tom boy
26. I feel more comfortable around men than women.
27. I HATE and i mean hate olives.
28. I used to be an A grade
29. I hate winter
30. I wish i had a better relationahsip with my mum

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

I dont think i ever actually have i mean once me and my mum were in a HUGE fight and we both said things we didnt mean, i guess i was just so angry and i thought about it but to tell you he truth i could never ever ever do it i couldnt even cut im just to much of a wuss i freak at cuts and that and i hate blades and needles i mean i get that people need a way to let out their pain and sadness but i dont get how you can purposly cut yourself eek lol

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

My views on religion uhhhh well i personally don't believe in any im an atheist. I mean like yeah okay there may be a higher power but can you prove it to me?. If so then i will listen . Im not against religion, many of my friends are religious and thats fine if thats what they choose to believe then power to them, it bothers me in no way at all :). What i don't appreciate though is when people try to push and i mean push their religion on you like algood if you want to hand out pamphlets at peoples door but if they say no thanks then be polite and just be like okay you have a nice day. Don't keep pressuring and prodding to get them to see what you believe, if its not for them then its not for them, move on they're not the last people on the block lol

:)

Day 03 -Your views on drugs and alcohol.

i believe that alcohol and drugs to a point can used for fun up until it crosses the line into abusing them. I mean i drink alcohol but its not every weekend. I also know when to draw the line i know when ive had to much to drink or i need to stop :)

SORRY !

Hye guys, so sorry for the late post. My little sister has been in HOSPITAL, i know right eeek. It was the scariest thing ever, she was eating a maccas chip and had a coughing fit, and the chip went down the wrong pipe into her lung causing a blockage and swelling, so they rushed her off to starship children's hospital and took her into theatre and shoved well not really shoved but whatevs lol anyway they stuck a camera down there and then put a pipe down there and sucked it out. And now she has a chest infection, my poor lil sis she cant catch a break :(.

On a bright note mine and Nathan's 2 YEAR anniversary is on the 14th OMG i know its sooo long :) im so happy though. Weve had some rough patches but we have worked through them and are better than ever hehhee.

Now for my LATE day 2 challenge. Where would you like to be in 10years?
Well I would like to be in a stable relationship and job , doing something that I love and enjoy. I don't want to be struggling or worried about how im going to pay that bills, I want to have a few close friends that I cant trust and have a fun time with and maybe I would like to have a baby. :)

Have a haul coming up to :) cant wait

xx

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Im dating Nathan . We have been together for 1 year and 11 months.
Im 16 hes 18 and it works out just fine :). My parents are way strict though so we find it hard to be alone sometimes :(
I LOVE HIM . end of story hehe

the challenge :)

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 -Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favorite tumblrs.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.